Trumpet

Wohooo Mr. Trump is been appointed to be a Mr. President to United State of America.

Yes, dasar-dasar yang dia laungkan memang berbunyi perkauman dan bakal wujud nya diskriminasi especially to orang islam yang dia labelkan sebagai kaum terrorist.

Nampak sangat bodonya hahaha...

Macam2 rumurs, cerita, andaian sejak dia jadi president.. habis la orang islam habisla...

But.. but... for me..
Inilah rahmat Allah. We don't really know what is Allah's plan. Tapi mungkin jugak sebab wujudnya Trump, orang islam yang tak reti bersatu ni akan bersatu..

Aku doakan yang baik2 je la. Harapan aku Trump diberi hidayah Allah. Manatau...

Sekian jelah komen aku yang ada ilmu cetek ni.

When I'm describing about myself

I'm not so happening to you bcoz;
I don't go to concerts
I don't chill out at nite
I don't go to the club
I don't always window shopping or making out the shopping
I don't like having an outside meal at a restaurant or food stores
I don't watch football game or breaking to the stadium
I don't live or participate in crowds
I don't put on those luxurious things..
I don't behave what a woman always does... like nail colour, manicure, pedicure... hair colouring etc..
I don't do facial treatment
I don't go to spa relaxing
I might so bored to you because...
Watching the tv at home is the most happening activity...
Hiking and camping are my interest..
Gardening is part of my hobbies same as artistic production, glass painting and drawing..
I will lost in my own world doing my stitching...
I love my own cooking and eating my own food is much better than outside foods...
I feel I don't like fireworks
I'm so sorry  I get to the salon just for my hair dropping treatment not for beauty treatment...
I inhabit in the world that man could be so bored... .. ....
I'm different...
I'm happy biting my nails which some people will uweeekkk....
I like the feeling of sore muscle
I'm old..
I've so limited time to be together..
I plan a trip with full activities rather than bermalasan at the beach....

Something to Ponder

Rumah ibu bapa adalah rumah bg anak-anak tapi tak semua rumah anak-anak adalah rumah ibu bapa..
Anak- anak boleh bebas dlm rumah ibubapa
Makan apa sahaja...
Tengok siaran tv ikut suka...
Guna apa saja kepunyaan ibubapa ikut suka...

Tapi...
Ibubapa tak boleh buat sesuka hati kat rumah anak- anak....
Tak boleh masak sesuka hati...
Makan apa yg ada dlm peti ais ikut suka.....
Buat apa sahaja ikut suka....
Anak tetap akan berkecil hati dgn ibu bapa..

Begitu juga...
Kenderaan ibu bapa adalah kenderaan anak-anak.....
Anak-anak boleh guna kenderaan ibu bapa ikut suka hati.....
Minyak penuh balik kosong pun ibubapa tak kisah.
Kalau rosak semua ibubapa tanggung..

Tapi...
Tak semua kenderaan anak-anak ibubapa boleh guna.....
Apatah lg dgn sesuka hati.
Takut rosak lah...
Takut langgar lah...
Takut calar lah.....
Kalau guna pun...
Pastikan minyak penuh semula.....
Kalau rosak pun ibubapa kena hantar pomen baiki sebelum bagi kpd anak- anak....

Itulah bezanya ibu bapa dgn anak- anak....
Ibubapa sentiasa mengasihi anak-anak....

Tetapi anak-anak...
Belum tentu mengasihi ibubapa....
Mereka kasih kepada harta mereka melebihi ibubapa....
Mereka ada masa utk membetulkan moto kesayangan mereka bila rosak tetapi mereka tiada masa hantar ibubapa ke klinik bila emak memerlukan...

Mereka ada masa untuk membawa anak isteri bercuti...
Tetapi mereka tiada masa utk cuti menziarahi ibubapa yg rindukan mereka...
Mereka sayang ambil cuti utk melawat emak...
Sibok dengan kerja dan tak boleh cuti menjadi alasan...
Tetapi mereka tidak sayang ambil cuti bila kawan baik kawin...

Ibubapa ingin melihat anak-anak sempurna walaupun semampu yg ada..

Tetapi...
Anak- anak belum tentu boleh sempurnakan hajat ibubapa walaupun anak-anak berharta...

Bila isteri bercerita anak tahu apa yg isteri mahukan...
Tetapi bila ibubapa bercerita anak2 buat tak faham apa yg ibubapa mahukan...
Ibubapa tidak akan meminta secara terus kpd anak2nya kerana ibubapa takut anak akan terasa....

Inilah diantara isi kandungan kuliah Ustaz Suhaimi yg sgt terkesan & realistik dlm keadaan dunia di akhir zaman ini...

Mudah2an kita tak disisihkan atau diabaikan semasa kita sudah meningkat tua nnti.. In Shaa Allah.. 😭😭

Homaiii

Astaghafirullahil'Azim

Came to my knowledge that, kononnya the group hiking, my group hiking or majority hiking group is doing something bad. Hiking is only a reason, to find a hidden places nak buat maksiat. Ya Allah..

I could say that, this is the thinking of the one who has that intention. I don't know the others, but our group as well as the other groups that I know, does not do these things. Even I could tell, they are so good. We keep the places clean, we appreciate the nature, we don't simply throw rubbish, we don't simply pick or break the trees. Even after we finish camping, we cleaned the place back. We brought down the rubbish, some more we picked the rubbish we found.

and we do solat jemaah.

Pesanan, tak payah la pikir buruk.... kalau kami nak buat jahat, tak payah nak pepenat hiking.

As for myself changes, for whoever (dia paham dan trasa kalau baca) this is not the reason  for what had happened. Fyi, hiking is my best place to keep my thinking away. Tu saja.. sekian !

Your Mother by Yusof Islam

Who should I give my love to? 
My respect and my honor to 
Who should I pay good mind to? 
After Allah 
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother 
Who next?Your mother 
Who next?Your mother 
And then your father

Cause who used to hold you 
And clean you and clothes you 
Who used to feed you? 
And always be with you 
When you were sick 
Stay up all night 
Holding you tight 
That's right no other 
My mother

Who should I take good care of? 
Giving all my love 
Who should I think most of? 
After Allah 
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother 
Who next?Your mother 
Who next?Your mother 
And then your father

Cause who used to hear you 
Before you could talk 
Who used to hold you? 
Before you could walk 
And when you fell who picked you up

Clean your cut 
No one but your mother 
My mother

Who should I stay right close to? 
Listen most to 
Never say no to 
Afer Allah 
And Rasulullah

Comes your mother 
Who next?Your mother 
Who next?Your mother 
And then your father

Cause who used to hug you 
And buy you new clothes 
Comb your hair 
And blow your nose 
And when you cry 
Who wiped your tears? 
Knows your fears 
Who really cares? 
My mother

Say Alhamdulillah 
Thank you Allah 
Thank you Allah 
For my mother.

Tajuk : BIBIK tolong la tobat !

Aku ada seorang bibik..
Tahap kerajinan  : biasa
Tahap mengemas : biasa
Tahap jaga budak : biasa
Tahap IQ : bawah par
Tahap menonton tv : cemerlang
Tahap reporter : cemerlang
Tahap ambik tahu hal orang : cemerlang
Tahap tambah  garam gula kat story dari pemerhatian dia (mengumpat) : cemerlang tahap 5 bintang

Sekian...

Oh My Ampang Park..

Tempat jatuh lagi di kenang inikan tempat shopping heaven..

Gotten the news about Ampang Park that will be demolished to allow re-development.
Agak sedih... as I have memories.. my small time, my teenager time, my working time till now...

I was lived in Yan, Kedah but, during my kid time during school holidays, I will always be here in KL and the most special place to hang out was this Ampang Park. Yellah that time we still have no KLCC, Midvalley or Pavy segala. Very limited places.. the mall, Yoahan, Wisma Central and some more old names... which have been faded already in my mind.

Whatever reasons that I have.. we can't stop development.

Goodbye Ampang Park...
I will miss you... L'mart, Cozy corner, De'elegent, kedai buku tempat baca free, Guardian, TC Permata dan semua la...

http://www.thestar.com.my/Metro/Community/2015/10/16/Bidding-goodbye-to-a-treasured-landmark-Mixed-reaction-from-tenants-and-shoppers-to-demolition-of-42/                                                                                                                          

Forgot

When TV came to my house.
I forgot how to read books.

When the car came to my doorstep, I forgot how to walk.

When I got the mobile in my hand, I forgot how to write letters.

When computer came to my house, I forgot spellings.

When the airconditioning came to my house, I stopped going under the tree for cool breeze

When I stayed in the city, I forgot the smell of mud.

By dealing with banks, I forgot the value of money.

With the smell of perfume, I forgot the fragrance of fresh flowers.

With the coming of fast food, I forgot to cook.

Always running around, I forgot how to stop.

And lastly when I got watsapp, I forgot how to sleep...

When I complain about the taste of my food
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who used to fasten some stones on his stomach to hold on his hunger

When I complain about how less clothes I have
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who had only two pieces of clothes for the rest of His life

When I complain of how uncomfortable my bed is
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who slept on the palm frond and coarse cloth in his entire life

When I become so miser to give and share with others..
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who used to give his everything that he almost left nothing for himself

When I think of how poor I am
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who loved the poor so much and said to be with them in jannah, it cheers me up

When I'm upset of those who hurt me
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who had mercy on those who did evil to Him

When I think of those who hate me
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who always prayed for those who had insulted Him

When people don't thank me for what I do
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who reminded me that the best reward is from Allah's side

When none loves me..
I remember that I have Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who loves me for thousand years

When I think of how miserable my life is..
I remember Him
Muhammad ﷺ
who had more struggle life than mine, and it strengthens me

May peace be upon Him, my beloved
May peace be upon Him, my role model
May peace be upon Him,
My Rasool Allah Muhammad ﷺ
May peace be upon Him  He's the best example
for our lives!.... 

How to change a Flat Tire for a Woman !

I jumped in the car and head out for the day.. this is what I normally do..

Today, my very* best day ever.. when I get my tire flat. Luckily it's not happening in the middle of the highway and also not happened when I was speeding.. sib baik..

How was it started..

During the driving I know something was not right when the driving was bumpy and heavy. The reflection from the other car shown my tire was flat… Homaii… I drove the car out from the road and stopped. Think.. think… my first time ever.. then.. tadaaaa muncul Mr. Superman to save my day. Alhamdulillah…

Then I just sit and watch sambil mata blink2 pandang atas cam kucing chomel dan manja.. miawww.. the only work that I've done was clearing the car bonnet to allow Mr. Superman getting the spare tire.... hand over the screws, not forget to snap some pictures sebagai kenang-kenangan…

Once done.. I bagi tisu.. sekian.

This how the women change a Flat tire yer kawan-kawan..

For the steps in changing the flat tire.. sila layari halaman berikut ;

http://www.pepboys.com/tires/treadsmart/changing_a_flat_tire/

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Siblings..

Siblings for me...
is someone who always stand and support you... who always be there.. who always loves you... means being there for each other.. or the best of friends...

But... Me.... I'm truly hurt as they're pointing their fingers to me.. as the problem maker..

They're searching for my weakness and mistakes...

They're judging me...

Thank you.. I'm happy if this makes them happy.. even it's hurting me..

Dear siblings,
For whatever just happened to me, it's left a big hole in my chest.. and you're making it deeper and deeper.... It's hard and painful.. who else that I have ?

I will never open my mouth because you have a brain to think...
To think what has caused this..
To think am I suffering all these days...
Or you never realized...

Or I might also forget.. you are not always around me to know what was I went through..

Thank you Allah for giving me the air to breath... still... to date.

Fate vs Destiny

Some people might be saying I am using those words in hiding my guiltiness and weakness. 

But, who am I to fight against the fate and destiny?

I was just given a choice, and the decision I've made was for my own sake of happiness.

I was hoping the close one will be here, support me.. 

But, what I got was different.. They're searching on my weakness and mistakes.

Thank you... 

maybe you care by doing so. But, it's hurting me in and out!

I am already left out... and I nothing new for me.

Who are you to judge me !

Who are you to judge me ?

Whatever happened has indeed  already happened..

I'm not giving a dam to what they're thinking...

If that's the only reason for you to judge me ? THANK YOU...

For the closest one.. whoever always around me...

I hope the bonding can help to protect, to defend me.. or at least to understand me for being close to me.. by seeing me suffer all this time..

I guessed it's not...

Go to hell to whatever thinking that you have..

Keeping blaming me will not help me at all.

The main points are.. 

• can you think, why in the first place this is happening ?
• why I turned ?
• why I run ?

I can't ask you to stop finding my weakness.. 

I will not open my mouth to defend myself. If Allah has determined my fate this way.. I accept it.. 

With all my heart, there's no regret.

The most important thing is..

I'm happy on my own ways...

Never feel happy like this... the burden in my head has gone.

Thank you Allah. I know this is what the best for me, you answered me.. Alhamdulillah...

Tired!

Toleration is now changed to hatred..

I'm trying to keep my mouth and my mind shut… to only thinks a positive thing..

I told myself, this is going to be over..

I'm trying not to burden my memories to remind those bitter things and to remind only those the sweet one.. how it was started.. how the 2 special persons came into my life

But.. Redho and pasrah are the things that easy to say but hardly to do..

I truth is.. all of the above is just 'a said.

I can't keep my mind and mouth shut

I can't stop thinking the negative parts

I was lying to myself

My mind is so tired to always thinking of those bad part

I was warned by people.. that the new world is going to be difficult and NOT easy

I said to myself.. I'll know how to handle it.. Inshallah.. with Allah's help.

Oh My DOG!

The introduction of the above is.. Si Casper the Dog.

He's not mine, but belongs to my neighbor, Madam Gurmit Singh.

First time I met Casper when he keep barking at me during my first visit to my house (current). I was a stranger, at that time. When I live as his neighbor he never bothers to bark at me anymore. Thank you for accepting me as part of your recognize people.

I always see the owner and the kids taking Casper to our park across of our lot. I like dog and cat.. but definitely I can't touch the cat now due to my sinus and will keep my distance to a dog… but I always admire si Casper because of kechomelannye.

Ok ok… enough for the introduction… the point here is Casper HAS GONE ! I feel so bad and guilty.
Why ?!

Because on the night he went missing, I saw him at my gate. I tried to call the neighbor but no answer. Then, I left a message.

I have a feeling not to let him alone outside the gate.. but I was too scared to hold him. He doesn't move when I say something.. yes I understand who am I for him to obey my words. Kfine !

He looked at me with his big eyes blinking while the tongue hanging out. OMG… so cute.. cair ! Feeling to hug and bringing him into my gate until tomorrow morning. But, I don't do.

I got into my house and kept him outside of the gate. I saw him walking here and there in front of his gate.. I pray for his safety..

A few times I came out to see him. He still there.. ok.. don't go anywhere, I told him (macamkan dia paham).

Our area won't have the pencuri anjing, my believe.. because we have guards…

The next day, I just realized that I have a message from my neighbor mentioning that Casper has gone. Oo WHAT!!!

I feeell so guilty. My bad !

OMG why yesterday.. I let the feeling away… If I bring him in.. If I press the doorbell this won't be happening..

HOMAIIIII…

I wasn't bringing him into my gate because I was really sure our neighborhood area is safe

I wasn't press the bell because.. ntah.. or I don't see Merc parked ? Ada ke.. coz I believe the owner went out. Kete dia selalu banyak..

The reasons to myself.. nak cover rasa bersalah !

So this is the poster, produced by the owner's dotter…

Casper.. I hope you are doing fine. If, you don't come home I hope someone will find and treat you well like your owner.

Please forgive me…                                                                                                                           

Xde Idea tapi nak blogging gak!

Nothing interesting for me to blog except some menus for my Iftar. Dayah is staying with me for 3 months as she's got to do her practical work at PETRONAS. Welcome to oil & gas industry, an addition from the family to this industry. Hoyeah… syabas betta.

For the 1^st weekend in the 1^st fasting week, I went to Pasar Borong Selayang with Kak Liza. Hmm… expected la when we bought so many things home. Kak Liza bought everything that's needed for Hari Raya.. hhehe tak awal lagi ke kak ?  but I still think that was the best idea because going closer to Hari Raya time, there will be crowds everywhere.

Baju melayu for my Feerdauses done in the 2^nd week of the fasting month. For myself.. heheeee ready dah.. dah lama pon.

I'm expecting Nyah and Mak gonna be come to my house for Hari Raya celebration… to balik kampong is still unsure or maybe we just go to visit not to stay overnight as the house now so dirty. We went to kampong cleaning the house. But, still the cleaning still unfinished.

Like I said, nothing is special or interesting to share here…

For those who have spending your time reading this, thank you so much.. Selamat Hari Raya and Maaf Zahir dan Batin.

Regards,

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Ramadhan 2015

Happy Ramadhan uolls,

Alhamdulillah, we meet Ramadhan again. As usual, the time when memories with Abah is back.. previously this the most busiest month for him.

As the Imam and Amil…

I miss him… Al-fatihah

SORRY for sentap

Too much talking somehow can affect a relationship.. But, keep silent also not a good solution.

To listen and to keep calm are the best ways, but... this is not an easy thing to do when your feeling is hurt.

People can say.. forget about the others, we can live alone ! Mind your own grave !

But, this is not for me because.. I’m dependable and needs people around me. I needs people to bury me.. to Talkin me.. I can’t do it by my own !

Reminder to myself, if you love someone or them, do not expect he/she/they love you too...

Too sensitive sometimes make the things worse.. but not being sensitive is a Selfish !

Why ?!

Why ?!

Why ?!

To understand people is not easy

To please people is a bullshit

If I say I hate.. No! the *love feeling is stronger than the *hate

To forgive... yes ! but can I forget ?

I'm sorry for being so sensitive

I'm sorry for being too care

I'm sorry for being so busy body

I'm sorry for being too attached

I'm sorry for loving you since I, you and them were born....

The bonding that we have is a forever relationship... to the Jannah I hope..

Please forgive me... for the good / bad things that I have done.. for you for them and for us...

we are sharing a same blood and genetic.. sorry you can't run from it !

KNB Engineers

My frens..

Some of them have gone pursuing their careers while I'm staying forever here.. huhu.. sob sob..

Tinjaulah mereka...

Dah duduk kat bangunan tinggi-tinggi mencapai awan

Pandangan hanya atas… indah-indah

Sesekali pandanglah ke bawah

Pandanglah tanah dan pasir…

Pandanglah selut…

 

Dah duduk kat rumah besar-besar

Sesekali tengoklah golongan setinggan

Tinjaulah bawah-bawah jambatan

Pandanglah kehidupan mereka

 

Dah makan kat hotel selalu, sedap-sedap

Sesekali tengoklah apakah yang dimakan golongan fakir dan miskin

Dah makan ke mereka ? makan apalah agaknya ? sedap kah ? kenyangkah ?

 

Wah mewahnya anak-anak kita…

Tab, Ipad, PS3, PS2, Ice box bagai... handphone pelbagai jenama

Barangan melebihi keperluan..

Tinjaulah apakan permaianan anak-anak mereka yang tidak mampu..

 

Wah cantiknya baju kita…

Apakah pakaian mereka.. banyakkah untuk berganti hari-hari ?

 

Mungkin mereka kekurangan..

Tapi mereka kaya dengan kebahagiaan

Mereka kaya dengan senyuman

Mereka tidak lokek membantu

Dan mereka tidak pernah meminta..

 

Semakin jauh aku pergi

Semakin aku terasa diri ini kecil..

 

 

 

 

Jodoh kita sampai disini

4pm.. Awak pi mana....? Carik-carik tak dak dah...

Pagi tadi kita bukak awak sat sebab nak pakai lotion.. tak ingat dah pakai balik ka dak..
Sedaq-sedaq bila petang awak dah takdak...

Huhu.. pusing-pusing kite carik awak huhu..

Takpa la... mungkin jodoh kita sampai sini ja.

Take care tau....
Kita sayang awak....
Kita redho....

6pm.. mulut kita kata redho tapi awat dok tringat ja. Kuat betul pengaruh awak. Kita dah mula rasa rindu. Nanti sapa nak teman kita pi ngheja... huhu...

Redho dan pasrah...

9.40pm... I'm still looking for you my dear. Hoping that actually I wasn't wearing you today, hoping I'm old and forgetting thing.. I searched you at your favorite port.... you weren't there...

Fine... this is the end.. the end of our relationship.  Thanks for being part of me for 5 years...

Goodbye...

I will never forget you... forever...

Innalillahiwainnailaihirojiun..