Cita-cita...

Tajuk di atas tiba-tiba je...

what was my ambition ? since I was small, since I know what 'ambition was, my ambition was never the same.

Tadika - I think that time my cita-cita more on pekerjaan yang memakai pakaian beragam. sebab, abah kan polis dan kami dikelilingi dengan unit-unit pakaian beragam yang lain yakni bomba, nurse dan
askar.

Sekolah rendah - confirmed.. xmau tukaq dah. Kami nak jadi pemandu kereta polis wanita. Ni pengaruh TV series yakni drama Chips. Hebat gila aku rasa jadi pemandu kereta polis.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/CHiPs
Hebat sangat kami rasa... style rambut pun mesti nak sama jugak..

Then bila kawan-kawan lain sebok la nak jadi cikgu, doktor, peguam. Kami pun tukaq cita-cita, kami nak jadi doktor jugak. Tapi Yang (my sis) kata, eeeiii Doktor xmau la. Dok kelebet kudis orang jaa.
Kami pun terpengaruh eeeiii kami pun takmau.

Jadi peguam pun hebat, gaji banyak. Itu je dalam fikiran...

Tak mau tak mau.. nak jadi cikgu la. Abah kata cikgu bagus.. banyak pahala. Semua cita-cita dan kerja datang dari inspirasi cikgu. Abah kata lagi kerja cikgu la paling banyak pahala.. Kami pun ok la. best jugak jadi cikgu.

Tapi abah dok kata jadi la ustazah.. huhuhu.. tinggi sangat tu harapan abah...

Dok tak dok, kami pun masuk sekolah menengah. Masa ni kami xtau nak jadi apa sebb kami mengaji xpandai sangat. Mana lepaih nak jadi doktor ka, majistret ka, loya ka..
Kalau berdasarkan minat dan kecenderungan aku lebih ke art.

Subject lukisan je yang aku consistently score. Bukan subject akademik yang lain huhu...
Ok ok... cita-cita berubah nak jadi fashion designer la. Cewah konon.... tapi pikir kang design seksi-seksi dapat dosa.. xbest xbest. betapa rigidnya pemikiran aku masa tu. Padahal pikir la camne buat fashion muslimah. Halloo that was 1988, orang yang pakai tudung boleh kira. Kami pikiaq bedasarkan pemerhatian sekeliling. Kami sendiri pun pakai tudung hari Jumaat ja, tu pun kat sekolah ja.

Habis belajar, still got no idea what will be my future job. Lantak la apa nak jadi.

Here I'm today... nobody akibat tiada perancangan.

Masuk Universiti pun tak plan.. its not my ambition or something but I got nothing to do.

Sekian.

Some years ago, climbing no limit

Credit to Geng Tingkatan 6, the photo's provider.

This was at my age 18, 1992 during climbing down from Gunung Angsi, Kuala Pilah Negeri Sembilan.

One of my good memory with the Geng Tingkatan 6.

SUHANA, AINNUR, TIMAH, AINA, ALIZ AND MYSELF.

Search me if you can...

Ramadhan one more time

Alhamdulillah. . Aku masih mampu merasai Ramadhan kali ke40. Segala puji bagi Allah tuhan semesta alam...

Rindu pada abah...

Sebelum abah jadi imam masjid... kami sekeluarga selesa berjemaah bersama-sama selepas berbuka... selepas isyak abah akan ke masjid untuk terawih. Malam abah akan mengaji di rumah..

Bila abah dah jadi imam... abah akan berbuka ala kadar dan cepat-cepat ke masjid sebab abah nak azan. Kadang-kadang bilal yang azan. Bila bilal lambat abahlah pengganti. Dulu abah penah jadi bilal sebelum jadi imam. Suara abah Azan the best azan yang aku pernah dengar... (agak bias di sini..)

Selesai mengimami solat maghrib abah balik makan. Tapi abah makan ala kadar je sebab nak imamkam solat isyak dan terawih pulak. Masa abah sangat2 terhad... bila selepas tu abah balik minum kopi dan kueh dan kembali ke masjid untuk mengaji sepanjang malam atau sebahagian besar waktu malam.. kadang-kadang tak sedar bila abah balik bila aku dah kene kejut bangun sahur. Sahur abah pun tak banyak bila abah cepat-cepat ke masjid untuk imamkan solat subuh pulak.

Sepanjang masa abah kene bersedia sebab abah jugak amil untuk kutipan zakat. Kerja-kerja abah semua jadi terhad. Aku bangga dengan abah.

Bila time malam raya.. meriahnya sebab abah dan his frens akan pergi rumah-rumah berdekatan untuk takbir raya. Kawan-kawan abah akan membanjiri rumah kami.

Aku akan tolong mak kerja-kerja dalam rumah. Sementara Chik akan sibuk hal-hal luaran.. seperti pasang lilin dan sebagainya kalau dia balik cepat.

Bestnya...

Malam raya was the best moment ever...

Masa tu lepas takbir raya.. abah akan balik rumah dan sempat bersama-sama kami. Walau lambat.. dan penat abah masih boleh tersenyum bila tengok cucu-cucu dia yang tak tidur-tidur.

Mak akan sibuklah dengan rendang dan nasi impit. Kuah kacang terhebat dan laksa.

Minimunnya bantuan aku masa tu.. aku banyak mengular dari tolong mak sebab bagi aku mak ada magic stick. Just wish and immediately the thing will happen.

Pagi pagi raya bila aku bangun abah dah tentu tengah bersiap ke masjid.. mak dengan magic stick.. everything ready. Aku stakat tolong susun pinggan dan basuh pinggan.

Mak will think for everything. .
Menu
Persiapan
Arrangement
Etc...

Masa kat kampung mak dah tak menjahit so takde la sebuk jahit baju kastemer macam dulu lagi.

Memandangkan masjid depan rumah.. kami dengan mak selalu lambat pi masjid. Selalu solat kat bawah. Kawan-kawan dah tunggu kat atas tapi tempat dah penuh huhu...

Abah banyak kali soun.. cepat-cepat.. tapi hmmm tetiap raya lambat. Masjid depan rumah hehehee..

Abah selalu balik lambat ke rumah pagi raya.  Balik sekejap dengan kawan-kawan dia beramai-ramai menjamu selera kemudian abah keluar balik pergi ke rumah-rumah kawan dia lak.

Tengahari baru balik rumah dan cari nasik. "Abah hari raya mana ada nasik"

Hari raya pertama ok.. tak payah nasik. Hari raya kedua abah dah nak nasik.
Mak dah paham sangat...

Miss my abah a lot.

Dulu2 kalau time tak pose selalu lepak malam2 tengok movie bersama-sama. Tak kisahlah cerita apa tapi kami akan together watching.

Cerita-cerita lawan macam Jackie Chan, Chuck Norris, Van Damme mase tu tengah hot la... memang kami dok teman abah while mak dah lama berlayar. Abah jarang tertidur depan TV seingat aku. Aku selalu la bila abah kejut suruh tidur kat dalam bila movie dah habis.

Gusti pun abah suka.. tapi mak lagi suka hahaha. Yang ni mak tak pernah tertidur.

Heeheehhh...

Oh.. abah.. adik selalu doakan kebahagian abah dia sana. Walau adik pretty sure that you're now happy.

One day.. we will be together. .. inshallah. ..

Flash back

Youngsters should not know this...

Current world kid is exposed to the technology games...

During my kid time.. long long time ago (too long LoL.. meaning I'm not young) this was my game.  I used to collect the rubber band.  Not only me, even the whole family helped to collect for me. Anak bongsu.. manja lah!

I was good playing this. Even I was small in size but amazingly I can jump high.. high up to the holder head.

Zero point..
One point. .
Two point. .

Norli, Dekda, Wan, Akma.. were the favorite friends that I have that time..

Miss them...

Book

I really love to read.. but not the school book hehehe..

It was started long time ago when I was still at Yan, Kedah. We have a small library in town, located right opposite my primary school. Normally, during weekdays, after school or before afternoon sekolah agama, with my best friend we will go there. Reading and borrowing some books.

But, the favorite time was during the weekend. I can just stay there from the morning till the afternoon.. skip lunch.

The best part was.. not about school book at all. All about story book, biography or something like that. Buku2 nabi. .. cerita-cerita zaman nabi or etc. Kisah penyiasatan.. wahh imagine myself as per the main character. Hahahaaa...

I was caught a few times by the teaching teacher while I was reading in the class.  I put the book at the table compartment under the table.. teacher was still teaching at front.  Hahaha...

I just cant wait to finish the book, to know the ending. . But normally not a punishment. . Just a reminder for me not to do it again but.. hehehe.. But, I still do it !

Still remember one of the occasion.. the book was.. 'burung yang pandai berkata-kata' hahahaa ko ade?! I was standard 3 that time.

I'm still remember, there was a time that I been punished by mak coz I dont want to go to shop to buy her some groceries. I was too busy reading the book, suddenly mak came asking me to do something for her.... dah tentu la *taknak*. Then Chik was forced to go.. hahahaahaha padan muke Chik.

As a punishment by mak.. on that day I cannot go outside.. anywhere. I was actually speeding reading it because I want to return the book that day. Ahhhh... mak Kejam! Fine... nangis dalam hati.

Terimalah hukuman itu...

Served me rite!

Part of the collections

1 cent, 10 cent and RM1

Money now, my mother time and my kid time. Last time when I was a kid, when I asked 10 cent to buy some sweets.. sometimes my mom and my father always story us about the money at their time. According to them 10 cent can buy 1kg of wheat. .. a lot of sweets. I was that time just listening with no feeling.

When I was a kid 10 cent can buy 2 pcs of sweets, 5cent each. My school pocket money was 50 cent which worth for nasi lemak, drink and jajan., until it was upgraded to RM1. My mother and father always telling that I was so lucky compared to my siblings because my pocket money was so much.. yellah tew....

When time to my kid, his pocket money now is rm3 worth for a pack of nugget and drink. Rm6 for both sekolah plus sekolah agama....
I told my son exactly my mom and my father told me... 'Last time when I was a kid.. bla blaa blaaa....'
heheheee...

Menara MBF @ OSK

I was having my late breakfast at level 5, Menara Citibank. While having my meals, outside of the window I can see Plaza OSK. Then.. the old memories came to my mind… about the building.  How am I going to start…??? Hmm… It was 30 years back when I was 10 years old. That time Yang and Nyah were working in that building. That building was formerly known as Menara MBF until it was taken over by OSK after the 1997 economic crisis and now the 20-storey office building is commonly known as Bank of China. Currently it is undergoing some refurbishments where there will be another tower on top of the podium block. Back to my story. That time we were still at Yan, Kedah while the sisters (Nyah and Yang) already working with MBF group of companies there. So when there was a school break, I will come to KL visit them. There was one or two or three… or many times I went to their office. I was amazed with their work, for me they're so successful and I want to work like them. I still remember they brought me for lunch at one of the food stalls along Jalan Binjai to have laksa. SEDAP tahap 10 bintang ! but now there is no more stall there. Big buildings have been constructed replacing those nice food stalls. Back from lunch, we went to Hank You Jaya of Ampang Park. Wah.. that time indah giler dunia aku rasa. They bought my stationery item and etc. For the 10 year old girl.. what else that I want... ?! Now, I'm working in a building across of Menara MBF, even though not the same job but I'm at the same place as my sisters.. bukankah mimpi menjadi kenyataan hehehee.... I will never forget those memories... Nyah, Yang & Me....

BLUE WAGON AND me

I'm still remember.. when I was a kid.., we used to have a wagon.. blue colour but I dont remember the brand of the car... if I ask my sibling I think they will remember as they were already grown up.. naughty and *bad that time.. hope they don't read my blog hehehee. I will story about them in another chapter... cruel sibling ever hohoho.... 

 Back to my blue wagon, that was awesome as the back seat can be folded and for a long journey mak and abah will transform the back seat of wagon so comfortable by putting the thin matress, cushion and blanket. Mase tu mana kesah seat belt bagai. Safety is not an issue !

 I still remember we gone to watch musabaqah al quran at Alor Staq. We were that time staying in Yan, Kedah and abah was so passionate with reciting al-quran. 

 Abah won the third place... I don't remember much but the memories we travel back was so awesome. I was lying down at the back of the wagon with chick. As usual, for the nite travel, Mak and abah will prepare the comfortable bed in it. 

Side by side with Chick and at the middle was the trophy. I'm so proud that time and wanted to face the trophy facing to the back to show to the back car what we have while Chick keep bothering me to make it facing to the front... (ker terbalik eh.. Chick please verify, if you read. But, I do also hope you don't read)

 Huh.. that what I said bad about my sibling.. we keep arguing until I was kalah and... jeng jeng. .. normal for me.. untuk meraih kemenangan mudah I will use my secret weapon which was... 

screaming and crying aloud attracting mak and abah attention. Hehehe.. mak will marah chik.. then yeaaaa I win. Lalalalaaa... so the trophy facing to the back...

contoh jer, gambar ciplak kat internet

Moon and me

Yeah... I thought I was the only one that time who was thinking that I have been followed by moon.

I was still remember.. when I was a kid.. age around 4 or 5 years old, I always lie down on my mother's lap in a car. 

At night, from the front mirror I can clearly see the moon keep following us.

I was thinking that I have a connection with moon hahahaaa...

Like the old malay film which there was a  girl has connection with a golden fish... hehehe lupa dah nama filem tu..

Too much movie at early stage..

My first earring, year 1980

It was still fresh in my mind, when my mother asked me to get ready early in the morning as we will go to the nearest gold shop. I wonder.. Why ?!

That time, I wasn't informed about the plan... or maybe ada kot tapi aku lupe.. whatever lah...

At the shop, the attendant came to me and said she wanted to check my ear but then suddenly.. I felt something... huwarggggg I was crying...

my mom actually arranged with the tukang tindik to hole my ear... huhuhu...

whatever...

after that I was so proud telling and showing everybody my both ears which got earrings.

These are my first earrings...

Thanks mak...

without you I will not get my ears bertindik..