Dreamed about you..

Days goes.. Slowly moving..

I standing at the window of my room, stand still.. empty view, looking far.

My mind empty..

I can't really think why I was there standing for nothing, 

it became my new habit after you left.

'are u there ?' a message prompted to my WA.

'I'll come to see you later today' another message hit.

I didn't reply. Watching it with an empty feeling. 

Exhale...

Not from someone that I expected. 

"I missed you babe..." my subconscious mind whispered. 

"Astaghafirullah..." I won't say it again... no more. My heart promise..

From standing motionless looking for nothing, I moved down. My stomach cramps and.. I just remember that i didn't taking any food from the morning. It's  already 2.15 afternoon. 

How many times that I've wasted.

Stupid me..

Now, there's a new person come to my life, I could foresee a same problem that may I face.

Maybe I'm lonely that make me sometimes replying his messages. Or maybe there's already a feeling.. I don't want to admit it. I don't need him.

But sometimes, I'm waited his messages. It just me who are so arrogant.

The pain.. I still feel it. 

How he cheated on me before he left...

That time..
I thought he's more than a dream
I could reach out and touch him

I was so in love...

I wanting him in everything, all around... and everywhere..

Until I know he's lying..

And he's happy with her..

Like a million knives stab into my heart..

It's so painful..

I couldn't turn..

The image of her playing into my mind.. even he tried to convince me that he love me.

A man still a  man..

I have no strength to hurt other woman.

Technically, I left.. but he's making me to leave.

That's long time ago.. until today... the pain is still there.

"There are somethings that I guess I'll never know
When you love someone
You got to learn to let them go

When I dream about you
That's when everything's all right
You're in my arms
Here next to me, forever
When I dream about you
Boy you never go away
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams
'Cause I still love, loving you

How can I get you to see
That I'm falling apart
Since you've been gone
I can never be sure
I could ever let go
Your love is much too strong
There are somethings that I guess
I'll never know
When you love someone
You got to learn to let them go

When I dream about you
That's when everything's all right
You're in my arms
Here next to me, forever
When I dream about you
Boy you never go away
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams
'Cause I still love, loving you

There are somethings that I guess
I'll never know
When you love someone
You got to learn to let them go

When I dream about you
That's when everything's all right
You're in my arms
Here next to me, forever
When I dream about you
Boy you never go away
Just close my eyes
Wait for my dreams
'Cause I still love, loving you