Butterflies

The butterflies seemed to be stranded there
I still can feel it, even if I just think of it
It holds me strongly
sometimes I couldn't move or the truth is I'm still not moving
or actually, I wasn't trying...

Love, hate, loneliness, longing  all mixed up

I walk, I run, I hike, I dive so on
The butterflies are there.. loyal

I begged to God, please please... let the feelings away, release the butterflies, take all the pain.

Until today my request and doa weren't granted

and because of the butterflies, the heart was still frozen for an indefinite period
Let it be
God knows best
He gave me this
He has the solution