aku dan tua

Mak

I'm now 50yo now

My body doesn't strong anymore

Mak

My body is weaken everyday... I'm scared

I'm not as strong as before

I started to have joint pain and knee problem

Mak

I'm still alone

My kids are getting bigger and I can feel they're far from me eventho there are with me

Mak

I'm scared 

I never told anyone coz I have no one to share

I'm crying everyday, no one knows 

I'm scared..

Mak

I wish you were here to comfort me 

I miss you Mak...

I know I wasn't a good child 

I'm so sorry...

I always think what my future will be..

I'm really struggling now to live

I hope Allah will grant me a good life

Mak..

I'm crying...

No one knows 

I'm sick...

Mak

I miss you

You never come to my dream..

Mak..

I miss you

Love begins
and I started to miss
Every moment is real

But far of my heart
Can I have you?
I don't want to be alone anymore

Losing you..
I can't face it
God indeed understand more

It hurts..

The bleeding wound

Can't bear to lose you
Even if it was only in my dreams

Listen my love
I really love you

I express my feelings,
The hidden part in my heart

The vibration of love m

If you could understand

It's only you whose enthroned in my soul

 after a long wait

after I freed myself

I thought I would be like this forever

I didn't find what I wanted

Then, you come with all the warnings

I accept with an open heart

because I'm not a perfect person either

Fall in love

and pledge allegiance

we pledge loyalty

we create happiness

for so long

I feel owned

I feel taken care of

Next

Is this what I received?

have loved you with all my heart

To be with you

Patience burns me

I don't want only in this world but for eternal life

I want to be with you, forever

I have sacrificed for this journey

I want a new life

I want happiness

But then again, today you did it again

You promised loyalty

I want to stay

but you seem to make me to turn

I'm not a patient person

I'm afraid that I won't survive

Do I have to give it up?

Nya

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